Me: Raw & Unscripted

I’m too young to be saying things like: “Dang, what if I did…” or ” I wonder what it would’ve been like..” <—- Seriously? Whatever happened to —-follow your dreams? Well, in my case- every time I get close to success my arm is being pulled and my body is being pushed towards another direction; someone else’s road to success— their vision for me.

I find myself making excuses for peoples actions like : “Hey, why didn’t you go to the party last night?”  Me: “Well, uh, you see—my dad really wanted me to stay home and so I could take my 3rd SAT in the morning—even though I already got a great score.” <—-Seriously?

I am too outspoken, determined, driven to not do what I want to do…or rebel and say “Hey! I’ve had enough! It’s my life” but when it comes to the topic of me— acting full time, I tense up and freeze when I confront my parents about it. Though, I am almost legally an adult and can basically do whatever I want…there is something about getting the “okay” or a “blessing” (if you will) from your parents. It makes things easier; stamp of approval affect.

Maybe I should “stop making mountains out of molehills”…I dot belong where I am…and I believe that I need to grow and stretch out, but uh..I feel boxed in. Obviously I’m worried about what people will think of me..or even yet looking bad if fail… I don’t make mistakes if their not premeditated-so I guess they’re always mad intentionally.

What if I don’t do what I want to do?..Who knows?! I could get big one day…just BLOW up. Idk.

Making mountains out of molehills, when they are not even real…need to go and follow your dreams; not as hard as it seems. TRY, give it a try…You won’t know unless you try.